New Start

I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane... Finally

So it's time to announce to all my friends.

Confirmed flight today, leaving on 3rd June.

I'll be leaving for UK on Working Holiday Maker Visa for 2 years. I'm also trying to take this opportunity to earn enough to fund myself to further studies, a childhood dream to study overseas, well, it's not so much for the sake of earning more in future because that's not likely to work in my field, but it's just a matter of being and seeing different environments. If my plan works well and i'm lucky enough, I'll start studying the following year, then it'll take a total of about 3 years in UK. (Chinese says: 1 stone kills 2 birds, for me it's 1 trip round 2 dreams, 1 of travel, another of study)

Sparks

Thanks to my dear friend Esther, who informed me that the WHM Visa was opened for application again... It was more than a year back when I decided that I wanted to apply for that. Few things that trigger me:

1. love of travel

2. further studies

3. was at a very down period at work due to some very stubborn colleague (been putting a lot more of my time at work to clean other's shit)

4. my sister signed a 3 year contract in local company = she can't go elsewhere... it's turn for me to explore now, at least some one is in Malaysia with my mum. 

It's hard though... most of my friends expected me to leave as I like, but I tell you now, it's kinda hard to get out of 'comfort zone', the place that you're used to. At the moment I hand in my resignation, I'm already getting quite familiar with my work, handling some very nice clients, enjoying designing for them so much... Being rather soft-hearted, I promised my boss to help them while I get my Visa done, so ended up I’ve been working part time for almost a year! Not fruitful in terms of financial and also time... I'm working part time with full-timer responsibility, no one to pass my projects to, actually I can just pat my butt and go.... but wanna do as much as I can, and also the greed to finish off a project for a super nice client (finally had to leave it to others, unfinished, coz my age can't wait).  Finally... made up my mind to put everything to a stop in April. Been dragging too long.... nothing done, going nowhere.  

Being out of job, finally... I can concentrate with my WHM application, and I'm lucky, I got it fast and smooth. Thanks to Esther and Gareth for  supplying some documents, thanks to my mother for great support  (financially and also understanding my decision) and my uncle(erjiu) for sponsoring my flight ticket.

Traveling Alone

Yes. I’m traveling alone. To answer the common question asked by many.

What about my bf? He says he’ll wait for me. He can’t let go of his family. I can’t let go of my dream. Well, nothing unfair to him, I’ve told him that I’ll go overseas in few years time before we get attached, if he can’t accept the distance, we’d rather not start, but he accepted, so… I kept my word (going overseas), he has to keep his (accepting my absence for few years).  As for his family of more conventional thinking, I’m really sorry that I can’t meet up to their expectation as of now. 

At this age, many of my peers are rushing into marriage or making babies. In fact, many are already mothers.  So what? I know I’m not young.  I can’t just follow what the majorities think. I can only walk at my own pace.  

Many may doubt the long distance relationship. Well, I don’t believe clinging tight to each other is the solution also.  My brother and sis-in-law passed the test, distant for more than 2 years, now married. Many couples, sleeping beside each other everyday, still went separate ways somehow.  I always believe what is meant to be yours, it’s yours, what is not meant to be yours, no matter how tight you hold to, it will still slip away. So… if we’re separated for so long and yet manage to keep the deep affection, then this relationship is genuine and we’ll truly appreciate.

Let fate decides.